scared

my heart has become callused.
i'm too scared of being vulnerable.
everyone tells me to be strong.
why is everything so unnatural?
fake a smile, telling myself to regain control.
pretend that it was just a bad dream.
fatigued from moving on.
i'm so tired.
i'm so frustrated with where i am.



i just want to run away.
confused and cynical.
when i see couples these days, the only thing that goes thru my head is 'hah, u guys aren't gonna last forever anyways.'
i hate my thoughts.
i hate my life.
will love ever find me again?
will someone please find me?



meanwhile, pls stay away from cold blooded es.

on some days

So how do you expect me
to live alone with just me
'Cause my world revolves around you
It's so hard for me to breathe

Tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with no air
Can't live, can't breathe with no air
It's how I feel whenever you ain't there
It's no air, no air
Got me out here in the water so deep
Tell me how you gonna be without me
If you ain't here, I just can't breathe
It's no air, no air



i try very hard. but some days it just feels like i'm suffocating.

a slow fade

must cling tight. mustn't lose hope.

its easy to run away, let things slide, and let nonchalance seal up the wounds.

but i know He's holding me close. and i will choose not to give up.

its scary how the world offers so many distractions when u're trying to run away, and we just end up getting lost in them.

guys are highly amusing

some people try and work very hard; some pretend to be; some don't really know

and some just ARE. i like those. ;)