sunshine and pink ponies

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

breathless



Love So Amazing - Cindy Ratcliff

Love held me closely
And set me free
Carried my weakness to Calvary

Jesus redeemer
You called me friend
Love so amazing
Love til the end

Love so amazing
Love so divine
To call You master
To call You mine
When my heart was broken
You mended me
Love so amazing
Your love for me

Your love strong and true
Your love rich and pure
Your love so complete
How I live for Your love,
I live for Your love for me

Friday, September 25, 2009

the manhole

i walked along one day..

and got one heel stuck in a manhole.

i decided to stay and play along for a while..

but realized that it was plain danger to keep hanging there and not make a run for it.

So i'm staying far far away!

The end.

=)

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

life's surprises




"i've been waiting for you my entire life..

I wouldn't change one second of our life together."

=)

Tuesday, September 08, 2009

i hate myself sometimes

again.. i let it slip.

ugh.

Sunday, September 06, 2009

unbelievable

i cannot believe how thick skinned some people can get.

they don't bother to check their assignment details and then when they SCREW UP, and i mean, SCREW UP THE WHOLE GROUP'S SCHEDULE, they have the CHEEK TO ASK: 'huhhh.. why didn't u tell me earlier?'

i am appalled. amazing. you deserve an Olympic medal for best tai-chi act performed.

I HAVE NEVER BEEN SO PISSED OFF WITH SOMEONE BEFORE IN MY LIFE. YOU ARE INCREDIBLE!!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!


Father, teach me how to love people all the more.

Saturday, September 05, 2009

everything is happening too fast

i just stop and stare blankly.
lie beneath the mask of smiles. who can tell, who will understand?
where have all the hours gone. 5 days felt like 5 years.
the expectations, the uncertain. decisions, choices, responsibilities.
slowly slowly the world closes in, suffocating and overwhelmed.
tears of ambivalence. insignificance, isolation.
utter discouragement.

then when i think all is lost, and i'm scarred for life, Your joy and Your love touches my heart, and overflows my cup. and in that moment, i have strength again.





Corrinne May - Scars (Stronger for Life)

I just want to run
Just want to hide away
Close my eyes to your gaze
Just want to leave
Don't want to hear them say
"You're no good at this"

When the world swirls with naysayers
Broken wings and torn pages
The road ahead
Drowning in my tears

Break me open
Tear me down
Into pieces
Broken crumbs
On the ground
You can mould and shape me
In your image
Breathe your life
You know I need it
Scars make us stronger for life

Losing myself
Gaining it back again
Forging strength from weakness
All that I am
All that I'm meant to be
Melting in your hand

Let the world swirl with naysayers
Pickled hearts and sour faces
What is real is what I cannot see

Break me open
Tear me down
Into pieces
Broken crumbs
On the ground
You can mould and shape me
In your image
Breathe your life
You know I need it
Scars make us stronger for life

Cut away
All within me
That won't bear fruit
Cut away
All within me

Cut away
All within me
That won't bear fruit
Cut away
All within me

Break me open
Tear me down
Into pieces
Broken crumbs
On the ground
You can mould and shape me
In your image
Breathe your life
You know I need it
Scars make us stronger

Scars make us stronger for life

Wednesday, September 02, 2009

courage & strength to carry on



Corinne May - Five Loaves and Two Fishes

A little boy of thirteen was on his way to school
He heard a crowd of people laughing and he went to take a look
Thousands were listening to the stories of one man
He spoke with such wisdom, even the kids could understand

The hours passed so quickly, the day turned to night
Everyone was hungry but there was no food in sight
The boy looked in his lunchbox at the little that he had
He wasn't sure what good it'd do, there were thousands to be fed

But he saw the twinkling eyes of Jesus
The kindness in His smile
And the boy cried out
With the trust of a child
he said:

"Take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as you will
I surrender
Take my fears and my inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all to feed them all"

I often think about that boy when I'm feeling small
And I worry that the work I do means nothing at all

But every single tear I cry is a diamond in His hands
And every door that slams in my face, I will offer up in prayer

So I'll give you every breath that I have
Oh Lord, you can work miracles
All that you need is my "Amen"

So take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as you will
I surrender
Take my fears and my inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
I hope it's not too small

I trust in you
I trust in you

So take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as you will
I surrender
Take my fears and my inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
No gift is too small