quarter life crisis

its 3.32am, and i can't sleep.

stuff that are running thru my mind take the form of phrases like 'financial markets.. bloomberg software.. p/e ratio..' while my right arm aches from an hour of golf after a week of no-golf.

i'm at the pt where i'm freaking out a bit. indeed, i am stuck. i don't know what to do. i'm not sure if i should enter the financial industry or to just do some other job. its strange, i feel so pressured to make this decision. its as if i only have a day to decide, or maybe its cos i'm forcing myself to decide when i don't really have to. i don't know.

if i sent you a whatsapp message, its cos i really can't sleep and i just wanna talk nonsense.. cos right now i'm not thinking anything constructive. its just nonsense.. and blank blank blank.

can't sleep. super can't sleep. :(