confused

i've come to a point in time in my life where things are just too confusing. its as if a car just run me by, and my conception of the world just crashed right in front of me. everything is too scary.

i realize how evil and crazy the world out there is; how some people wind up in my life, mess it up and just leave as if its in their right to mess people's lives up, just because someone else messed up theirs.

its a vicious cycle of messing up.

i'm nearing the point of jadedness. i feel very vulnerable now.. insecure and unsure. been blown around by the wind and scorched by the sun. i don't know where to go or what to do about this.

i guess i should have seen it coming, beside i was courting danger all along. so now i will shuddup when it actually bites back.

i should stop whining, just pick myself up, dust myself and move on with my chin up.

@#&^#*!@(! can bite the dust. :)