sunshine and pink ponies

Monday, March 30, 2009

only you see my tears



Tho I don't know why
Tho I am so disappointed and so scared
Tho I have no more tears left anymore
Tho my heart is so broken
Father, I will praise You in this storm
I will cling to You even more
And I won't let go of Your promise for me.

Thursday, March 26, 2009

UGGHHH!!

ughhh, i hate this feeling... when i hand in a piece of work that i am not even proud of. plus, not sure how everything will turn out because my analysis sounds like a horribly long RANT rather than a discussion. what's worse is that the rant is in frigging POINT FORM!! 

like seriously, how much worse can this get? 

=(

Thursday, March 19, 2009

Middle-march

A popular novel by George Elliot aka Mary Ann Evans. Subtitled 'A Study of Provincial Life", the novel is set in the fictitious Midlands town of Middlemarch during the period 1830-32. It has  multiple plot with a large cast of characters, and in addition to its distinct though interlocking narratives it pursues a number of underlying themes, including the status of women, the nature of marriage, idealism and self-interest, religion and hypocrisy, political reform, and education. 

I do believe that my life is literally and figuratively like Middlemarch, i mean we are in middle-march 2009 after all. Projects are piling sky high and i am starting to feel the pressure of having no mid-terms at all, and feeling very darn dead for most of my projects cos there is just so much fieldwork to do and no time at all. Of late, more and more i wish that a day has more than 24 hours and a week has more than 7 days. It feels as tho i haven't got enough time to do everything and my work feels substandard when i review it. 

Been having fever on and off this past week, half because of the horribly unpredictable weather and half because of stress. Its quite sadistic, but i kind of like this kind of pressure. Sometimes life becomes very uninteresting for me because i get bored of it easily. Lazing around takes so much effort and often no sense of accomplishment when the day is over. At least at the end of tonight, i can safely say that i have completed X pieces of work, had Y number of meetings, and tomorrow Z number of events will be happening. Its a love-hate relationship. 

I am pretty sure that by the end of the semester i will feel very very accomplished and possibly very burnt out, but i guess its okay. I can't wait for April, i need to cut my hair soon cos its starting to grow awry and uncontrollable. My mom and sis are going to be away on holiday in a few days so i am going to be alone with my dad for about 8 days. I wonder how that will turn out. Hahahaha! 

Okay, I am severely lagging in terms of my readings for ALL my modules, so i guess i'll scoot over and get them done now.