my inner witness

'For to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain.' - Philippians 1:21

I Will Rise

There's a peace I've come to know
Though my heart and flesh may fail
There's an anchor for my soul
I can say, It is well

Jesus has overcome
and the grave is overwhelmed
The victory is won
He is risen from the dead

And I will rise
When He calls my name
No more sorrow, no more pain
I will rise, on eagle's wings
Before my God
fall on my knees,
and rise...
I will rise

There's a day that's drawing near
when this darkness breaks to light
and the shadows disappear
and my faith shall be my eyes

Jesus has overcome
and the grave is overwhelmed
The victory is won
He is risen from the dead

And I will rise
when He calls my name
No more sorrow, no more pain
I will rise, on eagle's wings
Before my God
fall on my knees,
and rise...
I will rise

And I hear the voice of many angels sing
Worthy is the Lamb!
And I hear the cry of every longing heart
Worthy is the Lamb!

I will rise
when He calls my name
No more sorrow, no more pain
I will rise, on eagle's wings
Before my God
fall on my knees,
and rise...
I will rise....
I will rise....

grack! grack!

saw some nonsense,

thoughts are running wild,

getting pms-ey and irritated.

my mood for work was totally killed.

seriously. i've had almost enough.

i'm not God. i'm human too.

thankfully i'll be gone for a while.

kthxbye.



i need some grack and daily scoop. right about now.

Odette: "What else is there?"

what do you see when you see me?

is it what you want me to be? is it who you hope i am?

if one day you wake up and find that i'm different, should it change anything?

will you respect my voice then? even if its an opinion you may not ever comprehend?

i'm changing, and i'm learning, and i'm growing. even if you can't see it.



but you know, what you think of me doesn't even matter to me anymore.
and i'm not expecting you to understand me,
simply because i already have someone who does.
He comforts me, and wipe my tears.
even when i let Him down, He never fails to love me and draws near to me.

one thing i ask: Lord, what do You want me to learn from this?

mesmerized

today's service was awesome. its been the first time in such a long time i felt my spirit so excited as worship started. it was almost breathtaking.

i am convinced that God is bringing YM and Wesley to new places. i'm simply thrilled. from the first note of the worship to the message to the end, i almost didn't want to leave. it was truly mesmerizing.

it was rather strange cos i was separated from Marc for today's service. i knew God wanted to have me alone with Him. more and more i am convinced that God is here, and He has a plan and future for me. i am no longer afraid of what lies ahead or what happened in the past. my security is in Him alone.

so blessed i can't contain it

despite the fact that school and internship projects are hitting the ceiling, i can't help but exclaim how totally delighted i am to have all my single ladies back from Australia! its like suddenly the sunny days are back in my life again.

Nat, Bea, Hon, Meix and I had less than 2 hours together, but it was simply amazing. hahaha! all the single ladies, all the single ladiessssssss.. i will miss you girls so much again when u leave.

i'm so blessed that you're in my life.

much love. xoxo

paternal issues

every time i try to communicate with my dad, it just seems impossible.

i just want to blow myself up cos he is so annoying to talk to.

i'm too tired to deal with this. sigh.

my head hurts so badly. =(