trudge trudge..

it feels as tho my heart weighs a thousand tons. 

Psalms 38:4

'For my iniquities are gone over my head; 

As a heavy burden they weigh too much for me.'

I don't know how God is going to make things beautiful after everything that has happened over the past year and a half. 

Psalm 42:5a

'Why are you in despair O my soul? 

And why have you become disturbed within me?' 

I am so tired.